"What was not there, it is now..."

Hmm... "blank"... "stare"... "blink"... What am I thinking right now? I don't know. Kinda confused for a fact nothing is going in my head. I'm completely blank. Well not really. There is this thing that bothers me and my wife had been talking about. Am i only like second to her. It felt that way. But I don't know, it really felt that way. I don't want to discuss it now. It's not a point to discuss but it was not there but it is now.

Somethings are meant to happen unnoticed, in the past 3 years I've live my life, there are things I never expected. A wife, a child, a good job... a dream. But then they can all disappear. What was not there, it is now tells me that things can go awry or better which depends on the person deciding on his reality. I can't be the one to judge for you to go left if you want to go right. I can't say that' up when you are looking down on me. things can always be different and these things can happen at any time you least expect.

At this point, I'm tired and sleepy but then I wanted this out of my head. Maybe sleeping will let it go.

Later... = )