"To be taught how to love is the greatest thing someone can ever learn..."
I knew something was bound to happen to me one day and I knew I would never find miss right in my life but I was proven wrong. Perhaps if I should be lucky to be able to atleast given a chance to live long and meet this woman whom I refer as miss right. It seemed to be an endless search for the right time and right person to come and let me know that I should live long just to be able to meet her. This day, everything was a bit different. I had started my day slow but everything was coming to me fast. I had been with just a small time with her yet I wanted to be in love with her each day. Maybe if she'd let me, maybe I can both prove to me that I can love again and to her that no one would hurt her again. I need to learn to love again thou. I need to learn where I should stand and where I should be. Maybe this would be another experience for me to learn. A new one that would somehow teach me, there will be always new things for me to put in mind.
Love is sweet, it is bitter... As of now that is all I can say. Maybe later I'll add more.
Monday, February 03, 2003
Sunday, February 02, 2003
"Perhaps, sometimes, anybody is always afarid to be hurt be someone... we just can't let it go that easily..."
Maybe I was a bit harsh on my judgement on a person. He was right in a sense that he needs to protect that special someone of his and I don't blame him. He is a responsible man. Mainly, I was pressuring him. It was both work and love that is tied right now. We could not choose whether which one should we follow, whether if be love or work, duty or heart. I could forget love right now because the truth is I too am afraid to be hurt. I am loving someone who is also afraid to be hurt and to hurt someone. I wish I could answer all the questions I have now but I believe I am trying to assure myself that I won't be lonely anymore. I was afraid also to find a reason why I do love her and I was afraid that in the moment I love I would lose all even my own life. I had to think all steps I had taken. From the start I was happy to find love at a difficult time yet I risked it. I risked losing my own sanity. I was in love. With someone who pushes me back and wishes not to hurt me but also for me not to hurt her. I would prove her wrong if I had time to let her know how much she is. I envy as of now the two in front of me. They are in love with each other yet I am alone as of now. I could do nothing but watch them have their love. Sometimes, I too have my weakness I could not cover. As one would say, "Isn't it beautiful, to walk together in each others hands" yet right now... I long for someone...
Nobody can change the truth that we ourselves hide our pain in a different way. From acting like a child to eating which is the only solution to many. Pain is something no one can remove. Both physical and emotional. But the emotional pain can harm the physical self. We bury our self in guilt and render ourselves helpless with the tears we carried and never let go of our own pain that continued to be etched in our hearts. No one can actually changed the fact that we are in pain. We will always be, we just have to let go of it so maybe we can learn to accept the truth. Love is always come and go. and it never stays in one place. It will stay if one proved that it is true to its own. We urged not to be this type of love cause we know it will hurt us. If one can let go of his or her pain of her heart, maybe a person will grow to love someone true...
Maybe I was a bit harsh on my judgement on a person. He was right in a sense that he needs to protect that special someone of his and I don't blame him. He is a responsible man. Mainly, I was pressuring him. It was both work and love that is tied right now. We could not choose whether which one should we follow, whether if be love or work, duty or heart. I could forget love right now because the truth is I too am afraid to be hurt. I am loving someone who is also afraid to be hurt and to hurt someone. I wish I could answer all the questions I have now but I believe I am trying to assure myself that I won't be lonely anymore. I was afraid also to find a reason why I do love her and I was afraid that in the moment I love I would lose all even my own life. I had to think all steps I had taken. From the start I was happy to find love at a difficult time yet I risked it. I risked losing my own sanity. I was in love. With someone who pushes me back and wishes not to hurt me but also for me not to hurt her. I would prove her wrong if I had time to let her know how much she is. I envy as of now the two in front of me. They are in love with each other yet I am alone as of now. I could do nothing but watch them have their love. Sometimes, I too have my weakness I could not cover. As one would say, "Isn't it beautiful, to walk together in each others hands" yet right now... I long for someone...
Nobody can change the truth that we ourselves hide our pain in a different way. From acting like a child to eating which is the only solution to many. Pain is something no one can remove. Both physical and emotional. But the emotional pain can harm the physical self. We bury our self in guilt and render ourselves helpless with the tears we carried and never let go of our own pain that continued to be etched in our hearts. No one can actually changed the fact that we are in pain. We will always be, we just have to let go of it so maybe we can learn to accept the truth. Love is always come and go. and it never stays in one place. It will stay if one proved that it is true to its own. We urged not to be this type of love cause we know it will hurt us. If one can let go of his or her pain of her heart, maybe a person will grow to love someone true...
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